Friday, October 07, 2005
I hate schl
everything is messed up...
I want to die...
lol I've been sick for e past 2 weeks...
had a blood test...e doctors say there's nothing wrong
I'm tired all e time wif no energy
my bones ache, everything hurts...
I jus want it all to end...
I think Calvin likes someone else...
I cried my eyes out last night...
oh yeah last night was UN night at schl
I was part of e hong kong foodstall
and well Calvin was hanging arnd e hong kong foodstall
then for a while he was helping me sell food
but then later
c there was this staircase right behind our foodstall
n well everyone was sitting there
n well he n Anggra, she's anothing FIB
they were really close n cosy...
I want to die...
life brings nothing but pain..
also Xian, she's another FIB
there's this guy Kazu, he's FIB to, tt she likes well he doesn't like her
so last night at e staircase she was crying
n well u all know tt I can like feel other ppls emotions
n she was really really sad so I started crying...
then this morning I was jus out of it...
at schl I jus started crying in e middle of english
we were writting an essay on a poem
it was abt a guy cheating on his wife
their at this party thing n well
he's making eyes at another woman
n tt woman likes him to
his wife knows but there is nothing she can do
then e husband says he's bored n they leave e party...
when I read it
it reminded me so much of last night..
there was nothing I could do cause he doesn't know I like him
there's so much pain inside me
then this mrning before schl started I was like pacing arnd n arnd
so like my friends knew there was smt wrong
but I can't tell em...
lol I'm glad tt e hols r here...
if I had to spend 1 more week at schl
I would kill myself
g2g laterz