If I died tonight what would you do?

ello!
sry for not updating much
jus being very lazy I guess
well I updated my links!!!!
lol...being lame...
I gotta take my studies seriously
...or else I'm gonna die
anw...
y do u hafta go!!!!
y now...y at this important time
I'm gonna miss u
u were always there for me
n now ur going
I swear tt I'll come n visit u
cross my heart n hope to die
I'll keep my promise forever
I swear to u tt one day
we'll be together again
remember e promise we made yesterday
I'll fulfill it as best as I can
I swear on my life
tt I'll try my hardest to get there
no matter wat anyone says
I'll prove to them tt I can do anything
then when we get to our destination
I'll cook ur favourite food for u
then u can eat it all e time!
I'll perfect my skills
well...good bye for now...
I'll miss u...

its twice in a row tt I've been caught in e rain wifout an umbrella n both times I was drenched...it mus be a record maybe...lol tuesday I got drenched then wednesday I got drenched again!
lol never mind it was fun blow drying all my textbooks tt got wet!
I guess I'm still ever in love wif Ben...
if this acheing in my heart is love then tt is wat it is
if this longing in my heart is love then tt is wat it is
if this lonelyness in my heart is love then tt is wat it is
I wonder wat e future holds for us...
I hope its smt good...
anw now I'm a ficilitatior...at church
it means tt now I'm a youth leader...coolio!
well sortof cause I'm jus doin it for now...
plus then michelle asked me to be a youth intern at church or smt like tt she said!
tts so cool! I finally get to stand out n be a leader!
no more hiding in e shadow of someone else!
I'm me...jus plain old me now!
n I can shine for all I'm worth!!!!!!!!!
this elated feeling...is it wat all ppl feel when they have been given a chance to do wat they dreamed of? I hope so!
I have many hopes n dreams...
this is jus one of them
...its like no 4 on my to do list before I die!
I hope I can prove wrong all e ppl who ever put me down saying tt it was jus a dream n nothing more!
cause now I'm free in e love of God! with e power of God I shall prove thee wrong! I shall prove tt I'm worth it! tt I can do all things in God!
now no one can put me down or make me sad ever again...except maybe when my dad goes off on one of his rages and beatings...otherwise I'm free of the burden of feeling...now wat I always pretended is truly mine...
how I always acted happy now it is true...
in God I am happy n safe in e stronghold of e Lord!
I've become a true purebred christine...it makes me feel all tingly...like nothing before...sry abt my ranting n raving...sry...I shall go n be at peace with all...

notthin much goin on except I got caught in e rain yesterday on my way to e moelc for french...hehehe...I showed up to class looking drenched...and u could c through my uniform shirt so I had to change into my pe shirt which thankfully was dry! lol it was sooooo funny I was like literally dripping water onto e floor in e class...my books were wet but oh well...plus I accidentially fell in e drain...jus my foot only so then my shoes were totally drenched...plus when I fell into e drain I scratched my leg so now it hurts but oh well....tis life...blah at schl right now...its chi...well nothin more so byebye!!!
lol till laterz!

ello wello!
sry for taking so long to make a new entry!
lol...me been to lazy!
hehehehe...nothin much goin on...
wanna die lah...
studies is ok I guess...
nothin really to say I guess...jus tt I update...
hmmm....I've got physics tuition now...
hmmm...my class is fun!!!
I actually like all my teachers...nothin to complain abt...
hmmm...my class was in a star folding frenzy last week...
g2g...bein bored here...
lol...laterz!